A beginning?

So yesturday I had a meeting with a LYS owner (I won't be linking them again, least I say somthing hateful at a later date) about creating an exlusive colorway just for them. Unfortunately the owner was the only person working in the shop, so we were almost constantly interrupted. We got very little accomplished, although I was there for over 2 hours! I did get to show her my yarns, which seemed to like. She talked a lot about exclusivity and how important orginatlity is to her vision of her shop. All of her knitted samples are from her own designs. She designs about 15 colorways for every season, and she then compiles kits using those colors. We agreed that I would do 1 or 2 to start out with, on several different fibers. Despite all this, she never did tell me what colorways she wants me to dye!
I'm trying not to be too frustrated, and just be content that we met and she's happy enough with my yarns to warrant a second meeting.
The more I think about it, I'm coming to realize: This is why I've never put my creative stuff out there before (well, except for this blog)...I find myself overly sensitive to any percieved rejection of my work and get all worked up about things that, well, aren't really there. I mean, she liked the yarn, right? So why am I feeling so low about it? It's because I put something intensely personal out there, for someone to judge, to put a price on. And even with positive feedback, I still feel...sensitive. Like when you've been wearing winter sweaters and then spring comes and you put on a V-neck and you feel all...exposed...or when your nails have been long and one breaks real short and that skin is suddenly out there and you feel just everything that comes near it. And it's hard for me...because I'm not normally a sensitive person (at work, they tell me my managerial motto is: "that's ok, they'll get over it"). So to be this insecure about something I love doing, something I want to make a living from...it puts me at a weird place: I feel I'm not myself (the insecurity and sensitivity), but at the same time I'm finally putting what is me out there.
This is all something I need to work out, and that's why I'm putting it here, publishing it...so that it stays on my mind. This is not a plea for reassurance. Actually, I'd rather not receive reassurance that all went well, etc . I just need a place to be honest, to fully investigate what my life as a knitter entails, to admit that I see it as my art and that it's not just a hobby, it's what I do and a large part of how I define myself.
If this honesty sparks some kind of reaction, instead of commenting, I'd rather you post an entry to your own blog about the 'underbelly' of your craft and let me know...so this becomes more than a community in which to share pattern notes, but a place to learn 'I'm not the only nut'.
The typical Deuxieme Stitch fluff will return tomorrow with the infamous SP Questionairre.